Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Finding Happiness, Independently

Well, hello! It's been suuuuuch a long time since I sat down and gave my blog some attention. This is due to so, so many reasons, (which I won't delve into), but recently I've been inspired to get back into writing. I haven't totally been neglecting beauty and fashion over the past few months, as I've been diving into my YouTube channel head first, but I just wasn't up to going outside and shooting pictures of myself when I couldn't bare to look back at them. I'm not 100% ready to throw myself back behind the camera 'outfit post' wise, but I thought I'd type up something that's so important to me.

So, 'finding happiness'. What even defines happiness? Everyone has their own personal happiness. Some find it through reading, some find it through sport, some find it through watching their favourite show, it's different for everybody. 

Today, I'm talking about finding happiness within yourself, on your own. Yes, it's important to enjoy other peoples company, but it's so much more important, in-fact it's imperative that you can enjoy your own. 
I'm going to be honest, I'm no expert, but damn do I put my heart and soul into this every single day. From the minute I wake up, to the minute I fall asleep, my brain is on overtime trying to find peace within myself, and enjoy my own company.
I saw a therapist/mental health lady around a year ago, and she told me how important it was to be at peace with myself. I never got the hang of it, I never thought it was necessary. Anyway, as time has gone on, I'm learning more and more about myself, and something that I've learnt is that I must find happiness, independently.

Here's a few things I do by myself that give my life something, that make that second more bearable than the previous. 

1. Watching YouTube videos. I love watching channels where the YouTuber has a natural sense of humour, but also entrances me with pretty beauty products and eyeshadow tutorials. To name a few, KathleenLights, Grav3yardgirl, MannyMUA, BeccaRose.
I also love a good comedy YouTuber, e.g. Shane Dawson, Jenna Marbles, Glozell.

2. My dog. Whether it be a few seconds, or 5 minutes, I love playing with my dog. I'm not so sure he's as in to is as I am, but I just love squishing his beautiful little face!! It melts my heart.

3. A spring clean. Now I know that this really isn't everybody's idea of fun, but it's something I can really sink my teeth into. It occupies my mind, and the reward is a fresh, clean room! (Regardless of it lasting all of 5 minutes!).

4. A car journey with the window open. This is something I've loved since being a child. I love sticking my head out of the window, listening to old music, new music, just music. It clears my head for a period of time, and even puts things into perspective for me.

5. TV! Goodness me, those Kardashians do it for me. I can't get enough of watching their ups and downs and everything in between. Hollyoaks is another one. 7pm, Monday to Friday, you know where I'll be.

6. Applying make-up. Even on a day off, where I've no plans, I'll just sit in my room and apply make-up. I love experimenting and creating new looks. 

7. The gym! Yes, I only joined around a week ago, but it's such an accomplishment for me. I attending my first class, and I don't think I'll be looking back! Okay, I am officially crippled, but y'know what they say, no pain, no gain!

There's definitely more that I can't think of off the top of my head, but these are things that bring me joy inside. I can't tell you how important it is to find happiness within yourself. Just for one minute, imagine that everybody in your life disappeared for a week, a month, whatever, just imagine it. What do you do? What interests do you have? What do you do for happiness? It is so not easy, but it's a life skill I daren't forget. There's a big difference in loneliness and independence. Be independent. Find something you love and run with it. Get to know who you are. Explore yourself.

I hope this post made some kind of sense. It's almost 1am, my brother is off to Italy in the morning for 2 weeks and I'm really at a loose end on how to cope. I suffer with anxiety in far too many ways, and I don't always enjoy other peoples company as it can get a little unsettling, so scoping out ways to enjoy my own company is such an important part of my life. Anyway, I hope this rang some bells for some people. I'd love to know some of the things that make you independently happy, so please comment them down below! I'm hoping to get back into my fashion blogging soon, so I shall be back with those at some point!

Lots of love x
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  1. What makes me happy hmmm.. When everyone in the house is asleep and I have no distractions and I can catch up on telly and browse the net as I please ^^ simple but so effective. Hope to see you soon beaut ! Xxx


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